Lauren’s Journal – Journey to Health & Happiness... Failed

Lauren’s Journal – Journey to Health & Happiness

My challenge lasted two weeks and two days, and then I failed. This is delayed because I took the week to figure out next steps and really figure out what I can do to fix the repeated failing.

Being disappointed in myself is an understatement. A theme the last few years has been trying to do things for myself and continuing to let myself down by giving up when life gets tough or stressful. Using tiny things as excuses instead of making time and effort to be there for myself.

I was feeling okay during the two weeks, I was stressed and my body didn’t love me but I was still working out and keeping my water intake high… and then… the stress of moving hit hard.

I stopped working out, stopped the long walks, the running, the lifting and the healthy eating. I went straight moving and junk food eating. The move ended up being a lotttt more stressful than it needed to be. We were moving very minimal stuff a few miles down the road, but the moving company we were working with were beyond terrible and made the whole move a nightmare. Chalk it up to one big life mistake. Here’s to hoping our next move is a forever house or at least a longggg time living house. We are over moving!

Once we finished unpacking and were able to take a breather, I unsurprisingly got sick. What started as a bad case of allergies turned into a head cold and fatigue. My body is craving healthy food and exercise.

Final Thoughts:

I am disappointed in letting myself down. Looking back I know that I may have had unrealistic goals during a time of stress and moving with two little kids while the husband was traveling. BUT I shouldn’t have quit on myself so easily; I should have taken one day as a loss and jumped right back in. I’m ready to stop quitting on myself. I am ready to stop making excuses and finally put myself first. Giving up on myself isn’t an option anymore. I need to stop blaming others and stick to something for myself.

Training Plan is revised to start Monday July 11. It is happening. Using this disappointment as fuel to keep going. When I want to quit I will come ready this post.

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