Lauren’s Journal: My Why.
To show up for myself. To feel better. To prove to myself that I can still be in great shape as a Mom of 2 kids under the age of two.
I have always been an athlete. A runner. I have always identified as that.
I then got into a car accident May of 2017. I injured my upper back. It was muscular and no doctor could really tell me what was wrong. I became frustrated, in pain, and gave up on the idea of being a competitive athlete again.
About a year later, with very minimal exercise tolerated and hours about hours spent at all kinds of doctors. I started to feel better. The pain would come and go instead of being constant. To me this was the improvement I needed. I could “live with it,” as long as, it wasn’t a constant pain.
At this point in my life I had been married for a year, and I had pretty much given up on my competitive running days. We decided it was a good time to start a family.
Fast forward to January 11th, 2021.
I have two amazing little boys. 23 Months (on the 14th) and 3 Months (will be 4 months on the 30th).
I’m ready. Ready to get my body back. Ready to show up for myself. Ready to feel better.
I had gestational diabetes during both of my pregnancies and I’m not sure it fully went away. I never did the retest after my first child, and, still need to schedule blood work to test for type 2 diabetes after my second child.
I am ready to change my diet, get back into a solid workout routine and start showing up for myself.
It’s so easy to lose yourself in motherhood and the craziness of life, and I did just that. It would be nice to lose some weight and gain some muscle but I’m looking for more of a mental shift. I’m ready to be proud of myself again.
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This journal is to hold myself accountable and to be able to look back at my journey when things get tough!
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2 Comments
Katie
I’m with you when you say that losing weight & gaining muscle is nice, but a mental shift is the real deal. Since going through fertility treatments for several years and becoming a mom, I feel like I’ve never gotten back to being ME. Best of luck on your journey! And remember: strive for progress, not perfection.
runliftbalance
I’m am definitely with you about finding yourself again after having a baby! It’s hard, and I’m right there with you trying to figure it out! Best of luck on your journey too!